My difficulty with eye contact

Updated: May 11, 2019

I am afraid of judgement so my eyes are closed.

Sometimes pictures work when words fail.

I often have a desire to speak, but I fear that speaking is going to cause me even more pain than the pain I have locked up inside. The stories I have to tell can often be difficult, hard to bear. Sometimes I find it hard to hear myself acknowledge what has happened, come to terms with that and understand it.

Furthermore, I am scared of how people might feel in response to what I say.

My eyes are closed in this picture. This is because I find it very uncomfortable to look people in the eye: I am afraid of their response.

I so badly want stigma to be reduced and I know I need to speak out as fully as possible. It gets easier the more I do it, but it still scares me a lot.

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Rosie Cappuccino 2020

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