Hi, my name's Rosie and I'm the author of Talking About BPD. I was first diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (known as BPD for short) in 2014 after many years of struggling with very intense, quickly-changing emotions.
This diagnosis came as a relief to me because it gave me some understanding of my experiences. However, at the same time I was horrified by the stigma surrounding this condition. I felt completely silenced by the prejudices that many healthcare professionals and the general public have about BPD. To add fuel to this fire, I didn't have the professional help I needed and nobody to relate to. I felt so confused, ashamed and alone.
Immediately after I was diagnosed, I started blogging. Out of fear, I was anonymous under the name BPD Orchid. My blog was my way of trying to understand my experiences and connect with others. I also wanted to put something online that reflected my experience of BPD, rather than the hurtful stereotypes. A few years later, I changed the blog's name to Talking About BPD and decided to let go of my anonymity.
I'm still blogging seven years on because it feels 'right' for me to speak up about my experience of BPD and give others a chance to see that they are not alone in how they feel. I feel strongly that people with BPD are given a chance to represent themselves as they truly are and reduced to a stereotype.
I have been overwhelmed by the amount of positive support I have received for Talking About BPD since I started six years ago. Thank you to everyone who shares support and encouragement with my via my blog and social media. In 2017, I was shortlisted for a Mind Media Award and in 2019, to my surprise and joy, I won the 'Digital Champion' award.
I live in the UK with my partner and our dog. Rosie is my real first name, but Cappuccino is a 'pen' surname. I'm a special education teacher, a job which I love. I love writing, art, books, nature and all things creative.
Attempts have been made to silence me, but I decided silence wasn't for me. If you can relate here, I hope it can bring you comfort, hope, validation or confidence. I hope I can offer you some ideas about how to manage or lead a calmer life. Most of all though, I hope I can help you feel less alone.
Photo of Rosie
Mind Media Award Speech
BBC Stories Film