Hi, my name's Rosie and I'm the author of Talking About BPD. I was first diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (known as BPD for short) in 2014 after many years of struggling with very intense, quickly-changing emotions.
This diagnosis came as a relief to me because it gave me some understanding of my experiences. However, at the same time I was horrified by the stigma surrounding this condition. I felt completely silenced by the prejudices that some healthcare professionals and some of the general public have about BPD. I also didn't have the professional help I needed to manage my condition and I couldn't relate to anyone. I felt so confused, ashamed and alone.
Immediately after I was diagnosed, I started blogging. Out of fear, I was anonymous under the name BPD Orchid. My blog was my way of trying to understand my experiences and connect with others. I also wanted to put something online that reflected my experience of BPD, rather than the hurtful stereotypes. A few years later, I changed the blog's name to Talking About BPD and decided to let go of my anonymity.
I'm still blogging seven years on because it feels 'right' for me to speak up about my experience of BPD. I feel it give others a chance to see that they are not alone in how they feel, if they relate to my experiences. I feel strongly that people with BPD are seen for who they they truly are and not be reduced to a stereotype.
I have been overwhelmed by the amount of positive support I have received for Talking About BPD since I started seven years ago. It makes me so happy to see my work resonating with others and I am thankful for all of the support and encouragement I receive.
In 2017, I was shortlisted for a Mind Media Award. This is when I decided to let go of my anonymity. In 2019, I was shortlisted for an award again and, to my surprise and joy, I won the 'Digital Champion' category.
I live in the UK with my partner and our dog. Rosie is my real first name, but Cappuccino is a 'pen' surname. I have an undergraduate degree in English Literature and a postgraduate degree in Medical Humanities, as well as qualified teacher status. I am a teacher, specialising in special education, which is a job I love to do.
Speaking openly is not right for everyone, but for me it has been the right thing to do. If you can relate to me, I hope it can bring you comfort, hope, validation or confidence. Most of all though, I hope I can help you feel less alone.
My book about living a calmer, happier life with BPD is out 21.10.21 and is published by JKP. I can't wait to share it with you!
Rosie, author of Talking About BPD
Rosie's Mind Media Award Speech 2019
BBC Stories Film, 2020
My book is coming out 21.10.21. Published by JKP.