the shame & silence
Hi, my name's Rosie and I'm the author of Talking About BPD. I was first diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (known as BPD for short) in 2014 after many years of struggling with very intense, quickly-changing emotions.
This diagnosis came as a relief to me because it gave me some understanding of my experiences. However, at the same time I was horrified by the stigma surrounding this condition. I felt completely silenced by the prejudices that many healthcare professionals and the general public have about BPD. To add fuel to this fire, I had no specialist professional support, nobody to relate to and had no clue how to manage my BPD.
In 2014, I started blogging about my BPD. Too scared of others seeing my name and face, I was anonymous under the name BPD Orchid. My blog was a way of trying to understand my experiences and connect with others. Most of all though, I wanted to put something online that truly reflected my experience of BPD rather than the stereotypes. In 2017, I let go of my anonymity.
Six years after starting Talking About BPD, I am still blogging today because it makes me happy to speak up about my life and give others a chance to see that they are not alone in how they feel. I also feel strongly that people with BPD are given a chance to represent themselves as they truly are, as the stereotypes are not true and hurt deeply. My hope is that my work can help people with BPD become more respected and better understood by mental health professionals and the wider public.
I have been overwhelmed by the amount of positive support I have received for Talking About BPD since I started six years ago. Thank you to everyone who shares support and encouragement with my via my blog and social media. I am grateful to everyone who given me the chance to share my thoughts and experiences with their audiences. In 2017, I was shortlisted for a Mind Media Award and in 2019 I was shortlisted again and, to my surprise and joy, I won the award.
I live in the UK with my partner and our dog. Rosie is my real first name, but Cappuccino is a 'pen' surname. By day, I am a teacher specialising in 'special educational needs' which I love. I have also worked in both mainstream and special schools, in support services in the charity sector, a nanny/tutor and as a helpline volunteer for young people. I love writing, art, books, nature and all things creative.
Attempts have been made to silence me, but I decided silence wasn't for me. If you can relate to Talking About BPD, I hope it helps you feel less ashamed, misunderstood or invalidated. I hope it can also give you ideas about how to manage or lead a calmer life. Most of all, if you can relate to Talking About BPD, I hope it helps you feel less alone.
why I'm talking about bpd
overwhelmed by positive support
I hope my blog brings comfort
Photo of Rosie
Mind Media Award Speech
BBC Stories Film