Drawings & sketchbooks
Art is many things to me. It's a way of communicating, expressing myself, engaging with characters and exploring the world around me, as well as relaxation and fun.
bpd series
These illustrations have been drawn to capture some of the more painful intense emotional states I have experienced as part of my BPD. It can be hard to convey the force of the emotions in words alone.
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crow series
A mental health nurse I met during a really hard time in my life suggested that I conceptualise my self-critical & self-punishing thoughts as a character. That way, she said, I could try talking back to them, ask them what they want and see if I could change my relationship to them. I turned to drawing to help me do this.
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